So, it turns out that starting a blog around the same time as starting a job wasn’t the best idea and I’m sorry about that. I’m mostly sorry to myself as I had so many plans for what this blog would be like and none of them have come to fruition. I know that this blog wasn’t supposed to be about my life, but more about crochet and other crafts. But here I am posting another life update.
If you read any of my previous life updates then you will know that I have been suffering with depression over the past year. I am now off of my tablets but I don’t think that I have fully recovered yet. It’s so hard to tell. Like what does being normal feel like? I’m pretty sure that I have depressive tendencies anyway so being normal for me may well be just a little bit down but that’s okay.
Anyway, I took a few steps this year to help me to take back control of my emotions. One of these was that I decided to take some action against my quickly growing weight. My weight gain was one of the things that was making me feel really unhappy. I would look at myself in the mirror and just cry at what I saw, and every time I looked, it got worse. I kept telling myself that I needed to get my head sorted first and then I can get my body sorted; not realising that my body had a lot to do with where my head was.
So at the end of January this year, I looked up local Slimming World groups and found one that I could slot in around my shifts that week. I was so nervous about going and I didn’t speak to anyone, but I came away from it feeling inspired by the successes and intrigued by the concept of being able to eat as much pasta as I wanted and still lose weight 😛 So I went home, read my getting started book from cover to cover and got into it the next day. I lost 7 lbs in my first week! I am now 1 stone 7.5lbs (21.5lbs) lighter and only 6.5lbs away from my personal target. I honestly believe that joining Slimming World is the best decision I’ve ever made for myself and I recommend it to anyone who will listen (and some that won’t *ahem* my boyfriend *ahem*).
With my weight problem now mostly under control, I was feeling so much better. But I was still experiencing some quite big dips in mood. I noticed that these only ever happened when I was sat alone in my flat with a huge mess in every room that just felt completely impossible to tackle. Every time I felt like I’d made some progress, I’d go onto nights or my boyfriend would come over (who is even messier than me) and I’d be back to square one.
After we got back from our family holiday, my mum wanted to come and visit me in my flat and the thought of her seeing it brought me to tears right in front of her. So my amazing mum decided to head home a day later – which meant paying for train tickets – and help me to do one huge clean and tidy of my whole flat so that I could “start again” in a way. And so far it’s worked. I’ve listened to an audiobook called Clean My Space and I’m taking care of my flat a little bit every day so that I don’t have to do such huge clean ups that never actually get done. They still need doing occasionally but I no longer feel overwhelmed by the prospect of doing it.
So this brings me all the way back to the crochet and other projects that I’m working on right now. I’ll be honest, crafting hasn’t exactly been high on my to-do list recently but my boyfriend’s sister is expecting and is due at the end of August so I finally have motivation. So right now, and I have no pictures (sorry), I am working on a knitted teddy bear which my boyfriend’s mum bought everything for then asked me to do (annoying but it’s a cute pattern) and I have the materials for 2 crochet cardigans. I have started one of them but my priority right now is the teddy as I feel a little bit obliged to do it.
As far as this blog goes, I’m planning on posting some in progress pictures of the teddy and the cardigan that I’ve started and then I would really love to post some more basic crochet tutorials as the more people I can get to crochet, the better!
If you’ve managed to get to the end of this post, then I envy your patience. Thank you very much.